Our 1st week with you was definitely one with mixed emotions. We had waited so long for you, & now you were actually here in our arms. I felt relieved, happy, & scared all at the same time. Nothing could’ve prepared me for the lack of sleep or the struggle of nursing. Thankfully we had your dad with us that 1st week. I don’t know what we would do without him. We are happy you love your carseat & riding in the car. This made driving home from the hospital a lot easier on us. However, I still had to sit in the backseat with you because the front seat was obviously too far away. :) As hard as this week was, it went by so quickly. You lost some birth weight, but then gained about 2 oz a day after that this week. Good job!
Your dad had to go back to work this week, & wow, that was tough for us both. We had your Mimi in town with us which was super helpful. Mimi loves holding you & even changing your diapers. By the way, you hate getting your diaper changed at this age, & you pee just about every time. I tried taking some photos of you, but it’s not the easiest being the mom, nursing you, & being the photographer. However, you’re so cute no matter what. We tried the pacifier this week, & you liked it! PTL!! Before that I was the “human pacifier” & barely got any rest at all. As in the bottom picture, dad had to hold you in his baseball glove. While you clearly didn’t like it, it sure is adorable!
Week 3 was quite eventful for you. You flew on your first airplane (& did great, by the way), attended your first DYD Conference, met your papa, your cousins, Aunt Lindsay, & Uncle Kyle for the first time (they absolutely adore you), & I also caught your smile on camera. :) You did really great at the conference, & it was so fun for us to let all our DYD friends meet you. They have been praying for you since before you were born.
Week Four: This week was probably the most eventful week of your life so far! We went on our annual network tour with our network staff, traveling all over (literally) Arizona. The whole trip was about 1,000 miles. We started out in Globe where you attended your first network meeting, then went north to the Grand Canyon, & from there we traveled south to Wellton where you “held” your first gun. Don’t worry though, it wasn’t loaded. Anyone that knows me would know that. ;) We got very little sleep on this trip because of the packed schedule, but you slept great in the car most of the time. This week you also took your first bottle & did great! We are so proud of you!!
Week Five: We finally got home after 2 weeks out of town, & every day is fun getting to know your personality. Thankfully by now, you are usually calm during diaper changes & barely any peeing is involved during the actual changing these days. You’re starting to look at things more & even give us a smirk every once in a while. This week you got to see your McGrath uncles all at once, & we took the 1st official McGrath boy photo. It was also the last time we will see Uncle Connor for a while as he just moved to Hawaii. At least it’s somewhere we will want to visit. :) We got to celebrate Nana’s 89th birthday together this week. She sure loves you, & her favorite thing to say to you is “ohhh, bless his heart.” Your dad is in Seattle taking his master’s classes, so Papa Whitlock came to help me out. I love seeing you grow & pack on some weight. We will be at the doctor soon to see how much you weigh. Way to go bubba!
Here lies the story of the greatest day of my life thus far. The day our sweet baby, Myler William McGrath, entered the world.
1.10.17 6:30am That morning I woke up with minor cramps. They were strong enough for me to notice, but so faint I could sleep through them. I had them on & off, then went to the bathroom, & I passed my mucus plug.
8:30am I slept through the cramps & told Griffin he was ok to go into work, as I expected this to be an all day event. Griffin brought me a bowl of cereal because I was hungry, then went to work, & I continued to sleep. I wanted to get as much sleep as I could incase this was the real thing. My contractions were still faint, but they were a consistent 10 minutes apart. I began to track them on my phone.
10:45am Around this time I woke up & showered, ate some scrambled eggs, & cleaned the kitchen. While cleaning the kitchen, I noticed my contractions getting stronger & a little closer together.
12pm Sometime around noon, Griffin called to check-in on me, & I told him my contractions were getting stronger & closer together, but I still didn’t feel like he needed to come home.
2pm At this time, I was having to really focus my breathing during each contraction. I typically was on the floor during each one as they were pretty painful. I called Griffin & asked him to make his way home because of how strong they felt, & because they were 4-6 minutes apart.
Griffin left work then called me again to check in a few minutes later. In that short time, I kept progressing quickly, & I told him to hurry because the contractions were 2-3 minutes apart. I honestly was afraid of having the baby at home or in the car on the way to the hospital haha (total rookie).
2:15pm Once I got off the phone with Griffin, I tried to put on some makeup & finished packing my bags. The makeup thing didn’t work out too well because I was constantly taking a break to get through each contraction.
2:30pm Griffin arrived home, grabbed his things, & we headed to the hospital. I’m so glad we had most of our things packed because I felt so frantic before leaving.
3pm We arrived at the hospital, & while walking in, I had a contraction & had to stop walking. Griffin kept on trying to pull me in saying, “Come on, Babe. Let’s get in there. I can’t help you out here.” Haha that didn’t make me too happy, but he was just trying to get me admitted fast. I got checked with contractions 2 minutes apart (& had been for a while). To our disappointment, I was only 1.5cm dilated!! I was so bummed about it, especially with the amount of pain I was in. They told me to walk around the lobby for an hour & then they would check me again to see if I was progressing. In my mind I was thinking “heck no!” But we had no other choice obviously.
3:50pm We walked around the lobby, & Griffin was so great to help me through each contraction. I felt so nauseous & weak that I was on the floor multiple times about to pass out. I ended up throwing up a few times as well. In the middle of puking my guts out, Griffin said, “Try not to throw up because you’ll get dehydrated.” Haha this, again, did not make me happy, but it’s funny now to talk about it. I tried to stay hydrated, but it honestly was really hard to drink anything.
4:45pm We had been walking around for 55 minutes when my water broke on the lobby floor (thankfully the tile, not the carpet). I was so relieved because this meant I would get admitted since I was GBS+. So we went back in to get checked into a room. My coontractions got majorly stronger after my water broke, & some of them went from one contraction to the next without breaks. At that time, I measured at 4cm.
The midwife on call came to say hi & see how I was before checking me into a room. I had only met with that particular midwife once throughout my whole pregnancy, but it was at the last appt I had. I’m so glad we got to meet at least once before going into labor. She honestly was absolutely amazing, & I couldn’t imagine a better person to deliver our baby. We got an IV hooked up for antibiotics (for GBS) & got checked into our room. I asked to get in the labor tub right away. Griffin handed our nurse & midwife our birth plan, which they absolutely loved. They said it was the best they’d ever seen (who knows if they say that to everyone though haha). It was cool to share our story of our miracle with my nurse & midwife.
Throughout each contraction, Griffin, my nurse, & my midwife were all so encouraging & so helpful. I can’t imagine a better team to have had during the most vulnerable time in my life. I got in the tub & labored there for a little bit. While it helped, it wasnt enough relief from my 3 minute long contractions. I got up to go to the bathroom & had a scare because the nurse & midwife stepped out for a second, & the heart monitor on Myler dropped to zero & started beeping. Griffin ran to get the nurse, & thankfully Myler was fine. She said it was a “variable” & that can happen. Phew! I was a little distracted to really understand what was going on, but Griffin sure was scared for a minute. I got back in the tub, but quickly realized I wanted an epidural. Griffin & my midwife were both so good at encouraging me to go longer, but not letting me feel bad for getting one. After a few more long contractions, we all decided an epidural was a smart decision.
Myler’s heart rate was doing good, but it was a little lower than they wanted to see. I received the epidural & felt instant relief! Praise the Lord! I got hooked up to an IV, & soon after that, Myler’s heart rate came back up. We realized that his heart rate was low because I was dehydrated. My midwife said my contractions had little to no breaks in between because he wasn’t facing the right direction. Normally that position would’ve caused back labor, but I had none.
Griffin was hungry as he hadn’t eaten since breakfast, so his mom & step dad came to bring him food. We rested & tried to sleep while waiting to start push. It was seriously so calm & peaceful in the room & will be one of my favorite moments of my life. We had our oil diffuser going, the lights dim, & worship music playing. Griffin made sure to set the atmosphere, & it was perfect!
We waited throughout the night for me to become dilated to 10cm. The nurse had me change positions every once in a while to hopefully have Myler turn his head the correct way. Griffin was great about texting family updates & encouraging me throughout the night.
1.11.17 5:30am Griffin was sleeping, while I was resting my eyes, & my midwife had come in to check me again. I was at 10cm!! Griffin woke up, & I got the shakes because I was nervous. We did a practice push & soon after started pushing. Griffin had in his head that he would be standing by my shoulders the whole time while holding my hand, but to our surprise, he had to hold my leg up (numb from the epidural) during each push lol. In between each push, Griffin was on his phone texting people. At the time I thought he was being rude, but I later found out that he felt light headed & was trying to distract himself so the nurses didn’t have another patient on their hands haha! He even went to the bathroom during one of my pushes without saying a word. All in all, Griffin was seriously amazing! Encouraging me after each push & getting excited as Myler got closer & closer to being in our arms.
6:42am One last push & our sweet Myler William was here! He cried right away, & they quickly placed him in my arms. We both instantly started crying, & then after that I was pretty silent looking into my son’s eyes for the first time. It still feels so surreal. I got to hold him for about an hour while I delivered the placenta & got stitched up. After our skin to skin time, they weighed & measured him, then Griffin got to hold him for a while against his chest.
The whole experience was so much… so much emotion, pain, joy, excitement, etc. The first 24 hours after, I kept saying to Griffin that I didn’t want anymore kids because I never wanted another contraction again lol. It was so much more than I could’ve ever imagined, & my hats off to anyone who has a non-medicated birth!! I regret absolutely nothing about my labor & delivery. I, again, was so happy with my midwife & nurse, & I also am happy with the decisions I made. Everything was perfect!
The healing afterwards has been way more than I expected as well, & the exhaustion is so real. It’s been the most tiring 2 weeks of my life, but nothing has ever felt more rewarding. My husband is the best dad & husband in the whole world. He’s been nothing but helpful & encouraging, even when I’m crying for no reason. I’m more in love with him than ever before. We can’t even express how thankful we are for our miracle & how thankful we are to you for fervently praying for us every day.